We’ve all been there…
We’re floating along, in our zone, feeling good, rocking out life and then…BAM!
Something happens that totally triggers you.
Someone says something, you see a comment on social media, you notice someone just released THE program/book/product that you’ve been dreaming of releasing yourself…
And just like that, all the old demons and energy and chaos is kicked up.
In an instant your entire emotional state shifts and you’re desperately clinging to the amazing feeling you had just seconds before.
You’re not alone.
This happens to ALL of us.
It happened to me just this morning.
I’m on a trip with my mom, grandma and aunt in southeast Utah right now to hike in the canyons for the next three days. I love hiking in this beautiful space, soaking up fresh air and taking in the simply stunning views.
However, I was hesitant to come this time.
I’ve been living totally in flow and it’s transformed my business and income.
My relationship with my husband is better than ever, I feel healthy and incredible in my body.
EVERYTHING has shifted in the most magical way since I’ve made alignment part of my daily practice.
I felt hesitant to come on this trip because I knew there would be all kinds of old triggers that could come up.
But I’m not about to live my life avoiding situations just because I might get triggered.
My mom is one of my best friends and super supportive of everything I do.
However, I was concerned she’d encourage me to skip my morning practice and just “let it go” for a couple days.
I love my morning alignment, it’s important to me, I don’t want a “break” from it.
So I brought this concern up a couple weeks ago — that I’d like to go on the trip but it’s important to me to get to do my daily journaling.
And today, first morning here, it happened.
I let my mom know I was going to bring my journal and write during part of our drive and she said “I thought maybe you could just skip it for a couple days while you’re down here.”
I’d like to say I handled it gracefully and reacted from a space of total compassion and presence, but…
My response was something more down the lines of “Are you fucking kidding me?!”.
I felt the emotion in my chest.
I reverted back to feeling like the 16 year old girl who felt like no one understood her.
I felt tears well up in my eyes and felt frustrated that I couldn’t control them.
Of course, deep down this has nothing to do with not feeling supported in my journaling practice. My mom and I are both strong personalities and if anyone can trigger me, it’s her.
It’s part of the reason I chose to come on this trip, it’s time to release this pattern, to breathe before I respond and fully enjoy spending time with my family.
I’m sharing all of this (even though it’s not my proudest moment) because I know I’m not alone.
I want you to know that you don’t have to be insanely happy, compassionate or perfect all the time to live an incredible life and have a hugely impactful (and profitable) business.
You’re human and so am I.
I’m sure there’s a high chance you’ve been triggered lately too, maybe even by family.
It’s ok. You’re not alone 🙂
It’s ok to be triggered sometimes, it’s going to happen.
The most important thing is to not beat yourself up for it, to not make yourself wrong, and to not make the experience something it’s not.
After I had my outburst of emotion, I breathed, I turned on my badass playlist, I let it go.
Nothing needs to be processed.
Nothing needs to be “figured out”.
The only thing that needs to happen is for me to respect my emotions and decide that all my desires are important.
My happiness, my life, my alignment is my responsibility.
No one else can make me feel anything. If I don’t like how I’m feeling then it’s time to choose differently.
I choose differently.
I choose to listen to my gut.
I choose to honor my desires.
I choose to breathe and find my center in all situations.
And so it is.
You have the power every day to decide and craft the life of your dreams.
What do you choose?